“How have you been?” by Esmond Ng 16/06/05 © copyright

Been really stressed with work-related issues. Sometimes I just feel like dropping everything and go for a long, long holiday. (Maybe in some unknown Europe province and never come back) Have been so unhappy and down. Then suddenly I think of Thee. And thee brings a smile to me. (Then again, I don’t suppose I ever did stop thinking of you.) Hope you are doing well? I also supposed you have shifted by now. If not, the design company is seriously slacking. Maybe can upload a picture of the built-in LCD? Cool! I only have a ridiculously big-boxed bulky 21 inch. : (

You take care and maybe, just maybe I’ll get to see you someday……For Bubu,


“How have you been?” by Esmond Ng 16/06/05 © copyright
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Not sure if realize Thee, it’s been almost three full moons since last;
That I’ve seen those windows in eyes so lovely.
Last couple of days, can’t help me but thinks’t;
Of you and how Life has treated Thee.

I don’t have much ways to convey, to express.
But only through these words I message my thoughts that hoping you’d read.
That I’m still around wishing best everything for someone special to me.
That till this day, Thou art still amazing vividly.

Though short this period be, to me eternity time so seems.
Many things changed have may, from lodging to even studies.
Simple things these like, I have no benefit of sharing.
And simply no means of even knowing.

For no news is often said of as good news,
Thus I trust that Thee be well doing.
Sincerely I hope it be of this conjured case,
For if otherwise I’d be truly sad; hurting.

Pray I do still, that for you everything smooth sailing.
Many times, for my miracle that you’d call me so occasionally.
Most importantly however I need,
Thee be in happy bliss.

Life is full of shit!

Yes it is. Bigger each and every time! Don’t be surprised to see me on the obituaries someday yah. I apologize to all the nice people that I have disappointed.

Negative Quotes

These are some negative quotes I plucked off the net. Best read and forgotten. Warning: They are not meant to be inspirational or taken seriously! I better get some winks soon. Got to be at work at 7am!!!

“Those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it.” -- George Santayana

"The light at the end of the tunnel is the headlamp of an oncoming train." -- unknown

"That's the remarkable thing about life. No matter how bad it gets it can always get worse." -Calvin

"Just when you think you've finally hit bottom, someone tosses you a shovel." -- unknown

"People will believe anything if you whisper it." -- unknown

"If everything seems to be going well, you obviously don't know what the hell is going on." -- Murphy's Laws

"When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane." -- unknown

"When things are perfect, that's when you need to worry most." -- Drew Barrymore

"Today is the tommorow you dreaded yesterday." -- unknown

"Nobody's pain hurts worse than your own." -- 'Munky' James Schaffer

"Anything good in life is either illegal, immoral or fattening." -- unknown

"Every one is guilty of all the good they didn't do." -- Voltaire

"We tell you over and over again how wonderful and special you are and you just don't get it! What's wrong with you?!?" -- Helen Morgandorfer 'Daria'

"I'm not in denial. I'm just selective about the reality i choose to accept" -Calvin and Hobbes

"The hardest battle you're ever going to fight is the battle just to be you." -- unknown

"Don't ever slam a door. You might want to go back." -- unknown

“Here I’d be” by Esmond Ng 02/06/05 © copyright

It was never your fault. For Bubu,

“Here I’d be” by Esmond Ng 02/06/05 © copyright
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No need for that,
Sorry a word not meant this way.
Thee had not done to me on purpose,
Not Thy fault what of me that hurts.

For in Love this I can say true,
That no right or wrong can define to.
Thus if Thou truly be happy,
What sorry is need’d from Thee?

If any at all blame be needy,
Then it should be me to shoulder all it.
For I give my every in heart too easily,
When I encounter someone so worthy.

It be not deceitfully contriv’d,
For I would not pain for myself had plann’d it.
But of nature’s course I genuine did,
Fall head over heels so badly indeed.

Though I say these all with prose poetic,
Every word single I mean sincere herein.
Addition, not to make Thee guilty,
For that is last I want to achieve;
Surely, more pains’t to me if I knew it.

If, ever, if one day, Thee finds’t different.
That your heart would start beat for me,
I would hear and here I’d be.
If Thee feels ever such feelings,
Please, run to me.

For present, it be enough for me;
To know that all is well for Thee.
That in my dreams I can also rest easy;
Sweet and sugary I too want clos’d eyelids see.

I tell you actually,
That each before dreams I’d be,
Praying secretly, everything smooth for Thee.
That not hurt nor frown ever win,
The chirpy laughter I remember so clearly.

And till that if ever day ever really occurs,
I’d be cheering you on, as a friend so dearly.
For if aid Thee should require of me,
You can trust your good friend here,
Here I’d be.

Esmond's very own quote for June ©

Sometimes I try so hard to find quotes of the month to fit into my personal experiences and Life. So this month I thought: “What the heck? I’ll come up with my own quotes instead! Specially dedicated to Bubu,

“There are some people that enter your Life, then exit the very next moment. Yet there are those special ones whom come into your Heart and never really manage to find their ways out. That, my friend, is how you know you have truly lived.” ~ © Esmond Ng 02/06/05